Captains Log...supplemental

Had breakfast this morning with Angie and Norman her cousin. Angie as you may recall is the patient from Scotland who is here attempting to stop the cancer that started in her colon and spread to her liver. For whatever reason, they were not able to get the drug Avastin for her colon cancer, a drug which has shown significant help for that disease. Jake sat with us for the first time in a few days. Apparently the 17 hours of sleep was just what he needed and although still tired, I was able to convince him that we should try for breakfast. We sat at the table with Angie. Angie will finish her first 28 day treatment tomorrow followed by the MRI which will determine if she will stay for the second 28 days or go on to try and find another treatment. Sitting across from Angie I can almost feel the worry, hope, and fear that she is going through the day before the big day. It is something that you have to experience first or in my case second hand to understand. When so many have told me that they cannot begin to understand what we are going through, they are correct. You have to live it and I feel sad for anyone that does. There was nothing I could say, I would have liked to say that everything would be alright but that is such an unknown. No treatment is foolproof and usually more difficult the longer the cancer has been around. I said "Don't worry till you have something to worry about" Another useless comment, an attempt to try and make everything well when the situation is out of your hands and only time will give the answer. I told her that you will all help me by saying prayers tonight for good results for Angie, Mother and Wife.