Looking Back...again

Those of you that do no know Jake or have really not gotten to know him personally may not realize that he is deep and introspective and hilarious. Many who have been able to spend one on one time with him during the course of the last 1.5 years remark at how funny he is and how deep, an "Old Soul" many have said. When Jake first got sick I asked that any one that was able should consider taking him out "one on one" for coffee to get to know the real Jake. All have been very happy that they did and as a result Jake is closer with everyone in his family and his new extended family. For those of you that have not had the opportunity to do this I would like to include a letter that as a father I am very proud of. This letter was from Jake to everyone one month after official diagnosis of his tumor and before we had any plan of action. It was perhaps the toughest part of our journey certainly mine. As I have stated previously, I am feeling best when I have a plan and at that point the treatment plan was still being formulated. Jake decided on his own to communicate with all he could through the following email:

Thoughts from Jake (March 19, 2007)
“Hello it’s me
As many of you know I have been diagnosed with a brain tumor. It is quite a surprise for myself. At first one could see it as a sharp attack from behind which in many instances it feels like it. Not many people do recognize a sense of magic that comes with this situation. I am not the person to see the situation as all black and morbid. It is as simple as ordinary existence. It is important to know that there are shadows and that there is light. This tumor has I feel given myself a greater reach for knowledge, which is exciting because there is still so much more. This tumor has even brought more than I thought spiritually and emotionally.
I am truly grateful for all the support everyone has given me. My medications cause side effects of extra hunger. The food has very much helped and I very much enjoy people’s unique recipes. Eating has always been s favorite of mine but even more now. True all this food can be overwhelming yet the day it stops coming scares me.
Everyone at many points in their life are told that people care for each other’s well being. True that information can be told but it is just now that for myself it is truly known. The support shown and given has alerted me of good people in the world. Everyone has shined good character. Maybe I can’t communicate the magnitude of appreciation and realization of everyone’s kindness but this is the best way I know how. I am very grateful.
“There are more things to admire in men than to despise”- Albertt Camus
It is important to understand I am doing well and my days are good. My days consist of movies, reading, and eating. I attend school but my work has been provided so I can complete it at home. Now this is my first update. I would like to close by passing on my thoughts. It is important to say anything and everything. I would also like all of you to Realize. I can’t expand on Realize it’s going to have to be your experience and thought. Once again thank you for your support and I am doing just fine.
Warm regards, Jacob S. Pastel”

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