The Funeral For Jake

The funeral for Jake was beautiful and attended by many. Almost the entire church was filled. Afterward, there was a reception in the Parish hall where people ate, watched the video and shared stories of Jake. Both Marci and Alex had moving Eulogies and my father sang a song with Pat Crawford. The program and memorial card was beautiful. We could not ask for a better celebration of family and friends.
There is a strangeness in my life now as well as the rest of my family and friends. For the last 26 months we have in one way or another woken up each morning and continued a quest to keep Jake alive. This culminated in the funeral last night when we kept him alive in our hearts. Now that time is over and it is time to move back on to the business of our own lives. Indy, Jakes dog, just jumped on to my lap with his front paws while I was typing this to tell me he needs to go outside. He cannot open the door himself and has reminded me that others still need me. I now need to re-invent my life. The caretaking portion of my life which was so focused on Jake the last two years is now over and I need to re-focus my attentions to such things as a new job, my own health and the well being of the rest of my family and friends. I hope to never have to deal with cancer again. Cancer as defined by the dictionary as any evil condition or thing that spreads destructively. I could not begin to thank all of the people that have been and remain involved with me and my family over these past 3 years. All of you know who you are and that we are grateful. I hope that I can be as helpful to others as you all have been to us and that none will have to experience even a moment of the type of pain my family has experienced.
This blog will continue. Sometimes with the same frequency and sometimes more or less. The story which started with Jake will now expand more to life and happiness without Jake in this physical world. For the record, I do know he is happy and healthy now. My 30+ years in electronics and computers and the logic I have developed over these years still cannot compete with signs I have been given by Jake himself in the last couple of weeks since his death. The real question in these situations is not how Jake is but how I and my family will be. As I have said before there really are only two options, quit or continue. I will continue and make Jake and everyone proud. I have started the book that chronicles the last 2 + years. It is not going to be so much about beating cancer then it is about succeding against difficult odds and making life happen. I hope this blog and the book will become an ongoing inspiration to help others in times of trouble or need. I hope that this experience continues to let people remember that life is short and periless. We are fragile organisms that walk life as if on a tightrope. One false move and we can fall off the wire and die. Kiss and tell the ones you love how much they matter. Remember what is important and that the blessings of life are not a big house but rather a moment with a good cup of coffee with a friend. Continue to reach out and make friends and help others. If I can succeed in this then I am helping do Jakes work, continue his life and remain his father one of the many influences in his life that helped him improve on what he already is and continues to be.