Jan 2nd 2009 Evening

Jake is sleeping peacefully. He had been awake several times during the day. I attribute this partly to removing the Atavan which was originally used as a anti- seizure med but is sedative and replacing it with Dilantin which does not cause sedation. Also he is recovering from the effects of the seizures. Unfortunately however he is beginning to get some headaches so we have been forced to give him some morphine from time to time which puts him back to sleep. Most everyone has been to see and talk privately with him. It is wonderful and torturous to see him doing well as his future seems to becoming clearer. Still when he woke up this evening I asked him if he still wants to fight and he gave me a thumbs up sign. Bob Sands of the Hyperbaric Chambers of America had given Jake a good story about how he is the captain of his ship and he decides when there is too much water to bail out. That is why we have tried to keep Jake pain free and aware at the same time so he can be the captain of his ship and decide what he wants to do. The only question is if and when the water will be far to high for any human. At that time only God can decide. I continually have to remember that Jake is alive today and so are your friends and children. Remember that