Premonition

Given the magnitude of this tragedy it is normal for any of us to wonder or worry about what is next or if there even is a next. We would all feel much more calm if we knew exactly what the future held for Jake. Some people believe that this Earth is it and that you die and it is over. For those and any of you who question the future I would like you to read a composition Jake wrote one month before he started showing symptoms. I discovered this document in his notebook from school. As I read it, chills came over me. I have edited out some personal references to friends he mentions for their own privacy. When Jake was finally diagnosed and we asked the doctors about when they felt the tumors started growing they said it had probably been about 1 month prior to showing symptoms. Jake started showing symptoms at the end of November 2006. This document was written at the end of October 2006... Just about 1 month before the symptoms

Premonition

Oct 21st 2006

Today has brought on a weird feeling. It was not weird at all until I came home from work. Work was the average retail day. I was very busy. As I left work I had to take a co-worker home. She lived close by, but says she gets weird vibes walking home.
When I came home I was very loud and absurd. I checked My Space for attention from certain people. I called my only two friends I will call to hang out and hopefully connect me with my group of friends and girls. My two friends did not pick up the two times I called them each. It made me jealous and hateful.
I left with my father to go rent a movie. When doing that I developed the notion and feeling that something bad was going to happen. I was feeling like I was being stalked. Something horrific is going to happen tonight. My mom is out running; my grandmother is dying of cancer, and my father is out driving.
My vision looked different. I could see a lot brighter and clearer. I could have sworn I could hear occasional noises.
I sat in my house looking out the window knowing that if anything were to come for me there is a strong chance I couldn’t fight it because it would feed off the it, “The Fear”.
The stalking feeling was around for a while.
So I am sitting by the window to the right muttering to my dog Indiana.
All I know tonight is It isn’t safe outside. By looking out the window I just could tell that no matter how strong that the "It", “The Fear” could find my Achilles heel no matter what "It" is "It". The dangers. My fears and yours. I’m not scared something might happen, but I do know someone or something is waiting. It is waiting. The hunter is out there. I can’t see it because I, like the animals cannot see it’s camouflage. Which one of us animals is going to…
It is waiting.

It seems to me that somehow Jake realized something bad was going to happen. The idea that he could have sensed this tells me that there is much more going on than we may realize. Exactly what I do not know, but I believe he is there, happy and healthy